My biggest issues with my writing are DISCIPLINE and CONFUSION!
I have so many ideas/projects swimming about it my head that I tend to let them do just that – “swim” and postpone “I will do it tomorrow”.
This is a BIG mistake on my part. I write better first thing in the morning. That’s okay you might say but if I go to my solitary confinement room (which is essential to me, I can’t cope with interruptions OF ANY KIND when writing) at that time I end up being there sometimes all day long and nothing else gets done.
Consequently – I have an additional“guilt” factor running around in my mind too.
I think “Must get the hovering/washing/ironing” done BEFORE I write which is FATAL as by the time I have done all the menial tasks I am way beyond wanting to write anything at all.
During household chores I try to simplify the confusion of “where to start” and “categorise” these projects – I want to write a book about my disability which is profound deafness. I am also currently “blogging”. My youngest son will be forty soon, I have had a family tree made so imminently the PRIORITY is that I MUST write an accompanying history of the family to complete the birthday gift.
I tend to work much better with this kind of “deadline” which comes back to “discipline.” I know I will discipline myself to complete that project because in my mind I “have to do it”. I get lazy about the blog and don’t keep up with it regularly enough so when I update that it tends to be an all day project. That leaves little time for my book on disability.
I benefitted so much from working with Bridget on courses exactly because there were deadlines to fulfil.
I need to make rules and I need to adhere to them for example, I could set aside certain days of the week for writing.
That said I find “spontaneity” is an essential tool for my writing so once again I am confronted with another dilemma, discipline and rules versus spontaneity. Tricky.
The strangest phenomenon of all is totally inexplicable to me. Writing is the EASIEST PART! When I write it just “flows” and all gets poured on to the page with ease. Getting my head around all these other challenges is what “blocks” me.