A Writer's Process: Barbara O Donnell

Writing started out as a way of processing my teenage world. 

I’ve been keeping a journal off and on since, and find it useful.

These days, writing is imperative. I work full time, running two operating theatres, at a major London teaching hospital. Since I no longer work unsocial hours, I’m able to schedule writing time somewhat more, though I don’t necessarily write every day.

I used to think that you had to be struck with a flash of inspiration in order to write anything worthwhile.

Now, I’ve learned that the flash is only about the initial idea and it doesn’t always come.

When it does, I get it onto paper or the notepad app on my mobile.  At first it appears like a lot of scraps, but they can often become something cohesive if you can find the patience to sit with them, by leaving them aside for a while. I have found missing verses to a poem this way.

Initially, I use paper to brainstorm ideas, especially for poetry. Lots of notes in margins, redrafting using numbered drafts. Words and punctuation appear and sometimes sound different on a piece of paper in your hand versus read off the computer screen.  The space around the words can be as important as the words themselves, especially in poetry.  A computer screen can dull the edges.

In 2015, I made the exciting jump from poetry and journal to non-fiction, interviews, flash fiction, opinion pieces and editing. The next task is learning to distinguish what form would best fit a piece that I’m brewing. 

Working as an editor on the alternative Irish Arts website, The Bogman’s Cannon, has been invaluable both for creative community and learning.  

Another helpful strategy, has been finding a friendly mentor, someone you can bounce ideas around with and who may agree to look at your work, paid of course.  A good editor will see your internal narrative and help guide both individual pieces and work as a whole, in the right direction.

When looking for inspiration, I try not to restrict myself to any one medium. The Artist’s Date is another layered idea that can bring many rewards.  See a textile exhibition or a play. If you are a traditional form writer, see some slam poetry.  Do the opposite of what you might normally do.  I don’t have any formal tertiary education in writing, but this is no barrier. 

Do workshops, make friends, carve out time where you can to be creative and find your voice.  

Sherlock Holmes

Blocked writers are often surprised when I don’t immediately ask to see examples of their work, in order to ascertain what is wrong, and what needs solving. My approach to bringing writers from block to flow, begins with the body. The body gives me all the clues I need. One of my heroes in this respect is Conan Doyle’s inspired detective, Mr. Sherlock Holmes.  He is a master of observation. In the story The Adventure of The Stockbroker’s Clerk: -

‘I had never looked upon a face that had such marks of grief…of a horror, such as comes to few men in a lifetime. His brow glistened with perspiration. His cheeks were the dull, dead white of a fish’s belly and his eyes were wild and staring…He looked at his clerk as though he failed to recognise him.’

This is a vividly described, and extreme example of a human being in shock, paralysed, ceased up, blocked. Block is a continuum, and this is an extreme presentation of it. But wherever the writer is on that continuum, that is where the work begins.

Read the story at:

http://web.archive.org/web/20081002094602/http://etext.lib.virginia.edu/toc/modeng/public/DoyStoc.html

The Weekly Prompt

As you write, chart your physical responses to what your imagination throws up. When there is fear or excitement, you’ll become activated. You’ll probably notice that your heart speeds up, colour drains from your face, there is a tingling in your limbs. As the fear or excitement recedes, your heart will slow, colour will return to your face, your limbs will be cooler. Try not to always write from a place of activation. Too much unrelieved activation can lead to block.  The cycle of speeding up and then slowing down is important for sustaining your writing energy. 

First published December 5th 2013

A Writer's Process: Kriss Nichol

Kriss is the winner of the Wild Words Writing Competition which closed in December 2015. Here she talks about her creative process.

I write because I have to and am particularly interested in human nature, human existence and our relationship with the natural world.

I love the process of writing, of creating spaces between the words that allow creativity to take form and I love the intensity, when everything in the cauldron comes together and sparks a chain reaction. 

In 1997 I gave up my career as a teacher and senior manager of community education in a high school in Northumberland and set off to Nepal to work as a volunteer for VSO. This was to be a life-changing experience and provided me with the material for Magic Happens in the Dark. It is an autobiographical account, but the first problem I had was to present the ‘facts’ in a way that fit the brief.

When writing about events that happened within a different cultural setting and norms, the challenge was to convey and explain these without ‘telling’ all the time.

I therefore selected a couple of scenes to convey the alienation I felt first as a foreigner, then as a woman working in a hostile male environment, and finally as a woman whose sexuality was being suppressed by the culture.

I decided to open the story with a short description of the view from my flat and the longing for companionship then to move to the beheading and boiling of animals, a daily occurrence, which was woven into the theme of the story to be picked up later with the hot wax. The beheading also raised questions about male and female roles in that society that were then brought up in the workplace, enabling me to show scenes of the caste system and hostile male environment. There is also a ‘caste’ system amongst the westerners who worked there, as shown by the affluent wives of Embassy officials in the hotel, and a ‘no touching’ code of practice that has its effects on the main character in sexual repression.

In order to make the issues ‘real’ for the reader I had to find the right ‘voice’ for the main character and it took me several attempts till I was satisfied.

I also used sensual imagery, the fecundity and lushness of vegetation as a metaphor for her feelings.  This then led into the character’s slumbering, where the mistake is made, and culminated in her eventual awakening.

The Winter Solstice 2015 Competition Winning Story

Magic Happens in the Dark* 

By Kriss Nichol

(*From The Tree of Knowledge by Eva Figes)

Evening is the time I like best, when the night’s darkness still feels clean. My flat overlooks broken-down shacks that operate as shops during the day. By night the shacks are illuminated with kerosene lamps and smells of cooking fraternize with those of dust and baked earth, licking my nostrils, tantalizingly evocative of closeness and companionship. I scald with longing.

            Some neighbours tether a goat or boar outside before they ceremoniously behead them, the meat sold to supplement family incomes. Each day I see animal carcasses dropped into a cauldron of boiling water then scraped to remove the hair. After, they’re displayed on their backs, legs open to reveal the testicles—only the male of a species is ever killed.

I ask Santosh why.

            ‘Females are sacred, Madam, they are givers of life.’

I almost laugh, but cultural sensitivity prevents me. I know how women are treated here.

            We are joined by Vishnu Kharki, who glares at us from the doorway and Santosh scuttles away. Kharki stands, arms folded, sour-faced, trying to project the impression that I’m his secretary; in reality I’m here to train him. I’ve seen him before, looking at me, his eyes brooding darkness. Each time I catch him he quickly looks away, his documents suddenly needing intense scrutiny.

            ‘The Minister requires a report on the data from the last field trip. I’m going out; have it on his desk in the morning.’ His smile is malignant.

             ‘The data you wouldn’t let me see? The report that you wanted to write?’

            He laughs. ‘You misunderstood me. It is imperative it is on his desk in the morning.’

            ‘Then you have a lot of work to do,’ I say to his retreating back, the buttoned brown jacket straining over his spare tyre, his trousers slightly too short, wafting with each step. He ignores me. I grab my bag and pashmina, leaving the building with fists balled tight.

After a couple of blocks I’m outside the Shangri-la Hotel and beauty parlour. Since I arrived in Kathmandu my hair has grown shaggy. It sticks to my brow in curls and wisps rise in the humidity. My leg, bikini line and armpit hair have also flourished in this new environment. Suddenly I feel indistinct, an undefined, amorphous blob in the shalwar kameeze I wear for ‘decency’. A sandwich board at the entrance boasts special offers for beauty treatments and, deciding on some pampering to re-connect with my feminine side, I go in.

            I’m taken to a screened-off area at the back of the salon where two other women, wives of American Embassy staff, are lying on beds having foot and leg massages. Pop music is playing as I strip down to bra and pants, acutely aware that my functional underwear is showing signs of repeated hand washing and compares unfavourably with the Americans’ sexy, satin Wonderbras and skimpy briefs. The women look away, treating me with all the courtesy of a slammed car door, as I’m led past and positioned on a table next to them. Then the waxing begins.

            After the first strip is wrenched, thousands of tiny red pinpricks appear on the surface of my skin. They sting and itch, and with each application the wax gets hotter and hotter. Afraid my legs will suffer first degree burns before they’re finished, I empathize with the poor beheaded animals in buckets of boiling water.

            When it’s finally over I’m massaged and oiled, small fingers rubbing and soothing my most intimate creases. I grow hot, chest tight, and have difficulty controlling breathing. Oh, God, no. On this table, with those movements, my body is responding, speaking to me in ways I’ve forced myself to forget. I check furtively, my cheeks burning; no-one seems to have noticed. Eventually I relax, surrendering to the wash of eroticism.

            As I’m ushered to a chair positioned beside a window overlooking the exquisite gardens at the rear of the hotel I feel myself floating, my body just a whisper in the draft from overhead fans. Banana trees stand side by side with persimmon, apple and pineapple. Water fountains are being cleared of leaves and the swishing sounds of twig brushes, called besoms back home, hang gauzily in the afternoon sun. Birds and fruit bats wheel in the sky, flirting with the air in their aerial acrobats, rifling fruit on branches. Beguiled by the scene I am only just aware of being asked what hairstyle I want. I reply in Nepali, then drift off, back to the beauty of the garden.

The following morning I arrive early, slipping the scarf from my head as I sit down.

‘So sorry, Madam; has family member died?’

Santosh has brought some lemon tea and he and the other peons are bunched in the doorway, staring at my head.

            ‘No. Why?’

            ‘Madam... your hair.’

            Static between us holds like a web, swaying precariously.

            I start to laugh. Santosh’s worried face only makes me worse. At the Shangri-la I used the Nepali word for ‘shaved’ instead of ‘short’ and the hairdresser used a number two razor. Giggles bubble up from my belly and out my mouth, popping in the sterile, male atmosphere where a shaved head is a sign of respect for the dead.

            At that moment Kharki pushes through to discover the source of hilarity. The sight of his face, simultaneously a picture of horror, disbelief and disgust, sends me off into more gales of laughter. The men in the doorway look at each other with consternation and I border on hysterical.

This is my epiphany, the decisive moment when perspective is finally restored. I feel lighter, more alive; a lot more than my hair has been shed. With new-found awareness I appreciate the privilege of living at the top of the world, in a country of beauty and contradictions, having the experience of a lifetime.

Magic happens in the dark, when you’re not looking.

The Devil Is In The Detail

Effective writing is all about detail. Are you willing to roll up your trousers and shirt sleeves, and get in there. Really?

Impatience, fear of feeling strong emotion, rushing to get to the end. These things get in the way of writing in sufficient detail.

Want to heighten the emotion, or draw out the tension? The best way to do this, is via detail.

MORE DETAIL. These are the two words my university creative writing tutees are sick of hearing this week (and most other weeks).

Ask yourself: Is it the process you love, or are you just trying to make those millions and be universally loved? If it's the latter, re-consider your profession.

Writing often takes longer than we think. Sometimes twice as long if we want to go to real depth.

Take more time.  Love what you do.

Here's some encouragement to look on the micro-level:
http://www.theatlantic.com/special-report/by-heart/
 

Writing Poetry

In two of the Wild Words online courses this week, participants were asked to write a poem.

The few who felt poetry to be their drug of choice beamed from ear to ear, but the majority embodied the caged writer perfectly, as they froze and sunk in their chairs. The idea of engaging with poetry can fill us with dread. As writers, we often aspire to the lofty heights of the poet, but also, as one participant observed, poetry can make me feel stupid, embarrassed, because I don’t understand it. If I’m honest, I’m not even sure what a poem is.  So, poetry treads a fine line between being of the greatest worth, and simultaneously, worthless. So, how to face down your fear of the wild words species that is poetry? The first thing to realise is that it’s a worthwhile genre to practice, even if the animal that is your current writing project inhabits the far-distant terrain of prose.

Possibly because they are small, poems bring into close focus many of the skills that we want to hone as writers.

These include precision, clarity, metaphor, sensory impressions, rhythm and pace.

Writing poetry is useful because it’s like putting a magnifying glass to our processes as writers. All our fears appear in sharp relief. No wonder we don’t want to do it! Ever heard the saying -where there is fear, dig there? That was never truer than with poetry. Discomfort, if we can stay steady and work with it, is the source of greatest learning.

Choosing to write formal poetry, with its rules about rhyme and meter, is a great place to explore the ideas of ‘caged’ and ‘wild’, form and content in writing. Prescriptive guidelines may initially seem to cage your expression and limit the creative flow. However, it’s within your power to transform that cage into a supportive container and a gateway to freedom.

Go outside. Find something that moves, or is moved.

For example, an animal that runs, grass blown by the wind, or leaves swirled in water. Observe the pace and rhythm of the subject, until you feel those rhythms in your body. Then, allow those rhythms to move up and out of your body, to flow on to the page.

Play with ways of conveying how your subject moves: For example: do short or long sentences (or a mixture of both) bring it alive most strongly? Perhaps onomatopoeia - words that sound like or imitate the source of the subject they describe- has a role to play? Think of the ‘slither’ of the snake, or the ‘miaow’ of the cat.

You might even like to go one step further and create a concrete poem?

Try laying out the poem in the shape of your subject, and then see how this affects the rhythm of the reading.

First published November 2nd 2014

A Writer's Process: Kate Orson

When I was pregnant I read about how babies cry not just to get their needs met, but also to release overstimulation, or accumulated stress and emotional upset.

For children, (and adults too!), crying is a healing process, when there is a loving adult to listen. There are actually stress hormones contained in tears.

            This really resonated with me. In my early twenties I went through a difficult period. I did lots of journal writing, as well as yoga and mediation to process my feelings. With hindsight I realised all of these modalities helped me cry more easily. I also taught creative writing workshops and many of my students were writing memoir. They would often start crying as they read their work aloud to our group.

            I was fascinated how we could help our children heal from the beginning of their lives so they wouldn’t grow up carrying a heavy weight of emotional baggage.

I was surprised that few parents seemed to know about this. We are more fixated on avoiding upsets in our children rather than really listening.  

            I trained with an organisation called Hand in Hand parenting, and learnt more about children’s emotions, and how listening to them can help with behaviour challenges.

I had the idea floating around to write a book called Tears Heal, and share this information with parents.

Then my grandmother died. I felt very close to her and was devastated. In a funny kind of way this helped me get motivated. I’d eat some dark chocolate and then go to a coffee shop to write. Working on something to help parents lifted me out of my sadness. 

            It took me eight months to write a proposal. The second agent I tried loved the idea.  Within a few weeks I had a publishing deal with Piatkus.

After that the writing flowed. I was fuelled by an anxiety that I had never written a book before, and the uncertainty about making my deadline. As a full time mum, my time was limited. In the end I finished six months before my deadline! It helped that my husband is a teacher, and looked after my daughter during his holidays so I could write.

            Now I’m focusing on getting out there, teaching parenting workshops, and building an online presence. I’ve been reading a great book called Build Your Writer Platform by Chuck Sambuchino, and thinking how in our modern age it’s really the writer’s responsibility to publicise themselves. I used to feel a bit negative about social media, but his book taught me that it can be a wonderful way to help each other, and make real human connections. That’s what my book is all about.

 Pre-order Kate's book here:

https://www.waterstones.com/book/tears-heal/kate-orson/9780349410104

Celebrating the February 'Snow' Moon (2016)

This morning at 6am I saw the ‘snow moon’ of February hanging full and weighty in the pre-dawn sky.

How to find language to capture and express the experience?

When I take time to look patiently, words arise.

When I consciously expand my vocabulary, I not only express my experience more aptly, but I also live it more broadly and richly.

Did you know that Scots has at least 421 terms for snow? It’s true!

My picture contains (just) 24 words for the conditions of snow and ice, from Scots, Gaelic, and travellers’ cant.